Hi guys.. I'm back..
sighx.. its been long since i blogged, actually i have a lot of things kept deep inside but i just can't seem to let it out.. Guess i am no longer like wat i was.. things happen.. people change.. Feelings a lil weak now till i can't seem to type properly..
Its new yr's day.. was pretty rotten.. everything got cancelled.. ooh well not in much mood to celebrate anyway.. not when disasters are happening to our neighbouring countries.. thank god we are safe.. but who knows what might happen tml..
On the first of Jan, which is new yrs day, It was Lily's ROM day! Well she must be real excited and happy to be able to marry the guy she love.. how sweet.. i realli envy her a lot to be able to be with the one she love.. I can see she is real happy..
I went to Charlene's house warming.. ooh lucky girl.. she just got married and moved into her new place with her hubby in Bt Panjang. The place is real nice.. just nice for the 2 of them..
A new yr for me, a new start too. What do I want? I realli have no idea.. guess i just wish to be with the one i love.. and tt he loves me too.. I realli sacrifice a lot for love.. i really do.. and i nv did regret it.. not at all.. just as long as he is happy i'll do anything i guess.. even if he dun love me.. Not as if anyone cares but yea tts me..
I just wanna save money for myself.. for my future.. live a happy life.. get a flat.. 3 room or so or maybe even stay with my in-laws.. Find a guy who wants to spend his life with me.. Can't find den.. ooh well too bad for me loh.. I got to love my guy and also his family right.. I dun mind, as long as we all are happy.. and yup having kids did come across my mind.. hehe.. just a simple life will do.. No life is perfect but if we try, we can make things work.. I can't run away from reality anymore and keep on lying to myself things which are not true..
I have got to stand on my feet.. even if i can't find someone else, at least i still got myself to rely on. I have got to move on. I can't live in denial. I just got to be strong.
brb for more laterx.
Yours Truly, Emma 3:36 AM
