I woke up v early in the morning today.. spend a v happy morning and afternoon..
I've nv felt happier when i am with him tho its just for a little while.. I am so not like last time.. where by i will demand more time and attention.. just a little while will do.. but i was told some things that i do not want to hear.. and i have to accept the fact..
I've decided to go.. unless he make me stay.. its like i dun mind waiting.. if he tells me to wait.. i will.. tts how strong my love is for him..
Talked to ah ger today.. she made me cry.. not that she bully me but its coz she said one thing to me.. "god takes away something frm u nt cuz he wans u to suffer, but becuz he has something even better installed for u ...u may nt see it nw bt in future u will realise it was for ur own gd." I know what she mean by that.. but i am contented with what i have with him.. i really do.. he told me he has no confident to be a good bf.. but den again i do not think i am a good gf too.. but i have to pluck up all my courage to let him know how much i wanna still be with him..
She also told me "wat ever u do...wat ever it take watever ur decision u can count on me... i will be there... even if u choose to wait for him i'll support u alrite?" Thanks babe.. everyone is telling me to give up but no one actually know how much i still wanna wait for him.. call me silly but if u are my fren u should know i have never love someone more den i love him... all of u can see the happiness in my eyes everytime i talk abt him.. he brightens up my life..
I sound pathetic i know... but den again.. haikx...
I also need to confess something.. through out all of these.. i have hurt someone in the process.. thats alvin.. i am sorry.. but i dun think anyone can replace kenny in my heart.. its not u are not good enough for me or whatever.. its just that no one is as good as kenny.. Kenny told me if a better one comes along the way, go for it.. but after much consideration.. I have never felt happier with anyone but him.. so i wish u go back to her.. please.. give her a chance.. as i always say now is the yellow ribbon campaign.. everyone deserves a second chance... why not her.. I need a second chance but was not given one.. i dun wanna see another person ending up like me.. I know people can change.. coz i did.. she may too..
I wish to be given a second chance too.. I wish you luck.. wish me luck too...
Yours Truly, Emma 7:24 AM
